Week 7

This week has been filled with emotions.  Sometimes I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster.  I cannot control my tears anymore.  They come and go as they please.  

I still feel tired and nauseous a lot.  Thank God this past week was a 3 day weekend so I got a lot of extra rest.  

I had my first craving.  It was for a big slice of veggie pizza.  I emailed Darrell and told him.  The next day was Valentine’s Day and he brought me home a big veggie pizza from Papa Johns.  I thought I could eat the whole thing....but  I was stuffed after 2 slices!  I feel hungry enough to eat everything in sight, but get full quicker than I expect.  At least I had leftovers for the next day.  =)

A friend of ours was out of town and his little girl was staying with her Grandma and Grandma.  Her name is Emory.  She came to church and sat with me and she was so excited that I was having a baby.  She asked me as soon as she seen me, “What are you going to call its name?”  I said “I don’t know yet, what do you think?”  Without hesitation, she replied, “Snowflake!”  So funny!!!  She then told me, not to tell Darrell because he will freak out!

Later during church Emory was playing with my hair and she said “Jamie, I don’t want you to be a Mommy!” I said “Why not?!” She said, “Because you won’t be Jamie anymore and you won’t come and see me anymore!”  I explained to her I will always be Jamie, I will just additionally be “Mommy” now too.  That seemed to please her and me too. 

Truth is, I don’t feel like Jamie much anymore.  I feel like a cautious bubble.  Everything I do and eat and say and think must be thought about twice to make sure it is okay for our child.  Can I eat this?  Does this really contain raw eggs?  What kind of lotion should I start buying?  Am I getting enough vegetables?  How many potato chips are too many? 

A million questions every day, all day.  I know though, that somewhere deep inside is Jamie, and once she gets used to this being pregnant thing, she will be back!  =)